Survey says....!!

1. I do not want to turn 25, or continue to age, because I love being young, and 25 feels old to me. 21 is too young; 24 is on the brink right before 25, so 23 seems the perfect age to me. If I could have become a vampire last year, I think I could have been happy for the rest of eternity.
2. I want boys for children, and I only want three kids. I have never wanted girls. I don’t even like girls, as my best lady friends are not (stereo)typical girls at all. I would, however, settle for an oldest son, another son, and then a youngest daughter. But no older girls, and no girls if possible, please.
3. Ironically, though I want boys for children, I have, thus far, only come up with a good selection of girl names.
4. I like uniforms and the military, and being a part of a faction (For the Horde). When I was in college, I took an occupational affinity test, and my military affinity scores were literally off the charts in comparison to both men and women of my age group.
5. My favorite movies are horrors, epics, and war films. Someone once told me it’s because I need constant excitement. I think that’s true. I also think I have waaaay too much testosterone in my body.
6. I do not like being alone. I don’t necessarily like being in the same room with people, but it comforts me to know that there is someone within walking distance. Thus, I try not to work late, and avoid coming to work on weekends, since I feel lonely when I am there.
7. On that note, I love to party and have fun, but I need to follow “fun” with down, quiet time, or I get stressed. The time I need in a quiet house is dependent on how extreme the partying I’ve done, and how many consecutive days I have gone out.
8. After coming out of a damaging relationship, I developed the conditioned response of crying whenever talking about anything remotely serious. Sometimes talking to my bosses or coworkers makes me want to tear up, even though I might feel completely emotionally neutral, or even happy.
9. I was once meticulously neat in my youth. I am now a disgusting slob. I don’t know what caused the change, but I would like to be neat again.
10. I was once a self proclaimed elitist, and was also asked by my sister if I thought I was better than other people. I consider myself a person of good taste and high standards, and when it comes to thinking I’m better than others, frankly, in that respect, I no longer give enough of a damn about other people to engage in self comparison. Take it how you like.
11. Ever since I became a teacher, I have more deeply considered what it means to be “Gifted and Talented”. We often talk about signs of giftedness in our students, and I laugh when I think of the person who designated me as a gifted person. However, I will admit I take some pride in that title, even if it is meaningless.
12. People have jokingly told me I need an intervention when it comes to drinking, because I guzzle alcohol like water and I drink with the intent to get drunk. I think I have issues with stress, since the underlying reason for my drinking is that it relieves stress, I don’t worry about things, and I let go of grudges and embrace all of humanity. I like to think that’s how I really am, when I’m not clouded by biases (soberness). I don’t see how that’s a bad thing.
13. I hate the title “Christian” or people who say they want to be “good/better Christians”. I love God, and I feel that by focusing on those titles, the center of your attention is yourself, and not God. I figure if you focus more on loving and serving God, then your focus is on Him, and not superficial words and works to fit a title. To me, it’s a subtle but crucial difference.
14. I love writing and language. I find it interesting that when a teacher in another discipline makes a mistake, it’s forgivable, but anytime an English teacher makes a mistake about anything, it’s a cardinal sin. It’ s very strange how much reverence and authority we give to those who have a strong command of language.
15. I have always had a heart for the underdogs of the world.
16. I have always considered myself a blunt, straight to the point, “real” person. I try to present myself to others as I really am, without masking any of the flaws. What you see is what you get with me, and I admire and seek out people who share that quality.
17. I like being unique, and not cookie-cutter in any respect. I may like something mainstream, but I most often try to tweak it to become more personalized, and more Quyen-esque. To define my style, I’d have to say “nice, but rough around the edges”. This statement also probably makes no sense to anyone but me.
18. I have been told I come off as extremely intelligent, or extremely ditzy. I mostly get intelligent (yay). Therefore, it Is very surprising to me when , through random conversations, I discover how naive I am about the world in general. I just found out what “booty call” really means about 4 days ago.
19. It happened more often when I was younger , but sometimes when I heard or said certain things, it made me feel like I had a large die made of bone, with rounded edges, in my mouth. I don’t know why, and why the feeling was so specific. Apparently, this is very strange.
20. When I was younger, the closest thing I had to a favorite color was black. I think that lasted until college, and then my favorite color was green. In the last few months or so, I have really enjoyed baby/blushing pink. People used to think my favorite color was blood red, and then I noticed how much red I kept around me. Now, my favorite color are red and black. They were my high school colors, the colors of the Horde, my sweet 16 prom colors with Jason, the colors at my workplace, and now, the colors for my wedding. I find them bold and classy.
21. I had a horrible fear of zombies as a child. I would cry when forced to watch zombie horror films. Then I played a little game called “Resident Evil”. Killing zombies in the game was empowering and therapeutic for me, and now I love zombie movies. However, there is an illustration in a children’s book called “Scary Stories” that I still cannot look at to this day without feeling a little panicked. It’s of a dead woman. I am still afraid of dead women.
22. I like to think I have an acute sense of smell. I like being able to smell things well.
23. I took a personality quiz that told me the deadly sin that characterized me was Envy. It told me that when I died, I would probably be in a hospital bed next to someone dying of a rare, exotic disease, and that I would die a nice, quiet death, envying them. I have to say, this is probably right on the ball. If you got it, I probably want it. Unless it requires a lot of work, then I probably don’t care because I’m a lazy bastard.
24. I hate and love myself for being an enabler. I will probably have really intelligent, polite kids, who are also really spoiled.
25. I had a friend notice that when they talk to me, I don’t even look at them. If this is you at some point, just know that I am not ignoring you, and that I am in fact listening quite hard. I get distracted if my eyes focus on something. If my eyes aren’t focused, I can concentrate more on listening.